I heaped abuse on my body this weekend. Eat, eat, eat, eat, eat, eat. Every fucking thing in sight. Correct that--I looked at everything in sight, then added bacon, then ate it.
My appetite is a money changer in the temple that is my body. I need a savior to chase out the defilers, quick, before the walls come tumbling down.
I eat out of boredom. I eat out of anxiety. I eat to soothe pain. I eat to celebrate good fortune. I eat to numb existential terror. I eat because, well, bacon tastes goooood.
I suppose it's better to lose a weekend to food than to heroin or alcohol, given my responsibilities at this moment in my life, but that's pretty cold comfort when it comes down to it. At a certain point "at least I'm not a drug addict!" becomes a less than satisfying excuse. Especially when, in truth, I am absolutely an addict and it's probably only an accident of circumstance and maybe biology that I tend to choose deep fried drugs rather than opiates.
Man up, Huntington. Put down the peanut butter pretzels, right fucking now. Just walk away.
They make peanut butter pretzels?
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Peanut butter pretzels are INCREDIBLE. $2.99 for a bag at Trader Joe's.
ReplyDeleteI need to do the same with Herb.
ReplyDeleteWhat is herb?
ReplyDeletesomeone once told me there are two ways to deal with a craving. One is to give into it. The other is not give into it. Whichever way you choose deal with it, the craving will go away.
ReplyDeleteOh yes, this is the principal of Vipassana meditation. www.dhamma.org
ReplyDeleteIt too shall pass..
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Herb is a friend of Mr. BVE. A very, very, close friend that goes everywhere with him.
ReplyDeleteomg those peanut butter pretzles are ridiculous. Question: Do you feel full very often? I also eat eat eat eat eat for multiple reasons but I also don't ever really feel very full very often. Even when I man up on fiber and veggies and just eat those.
ReplyDeleteI hardly ever feel full. My stomach is a bottomless dark pit.
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